Monday 14 November 2011

I am so sad.

I can hardly see through the tears.
I've been dreading this day forever.
I feel like I've lost Alexander (again).
Yet, it's not my child.
She is someone elses.
Her mother must now live forever without her daughter.
I am so sad.

3 comments:

  1. I hate when there's a new one of us. ((hugs))

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  2. There's something so inherently wrong when another momma joins this club...sending you and her hugs and prayers!

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  3. I am so sad too. A man I work with just lost his 20-something son in a car accident. And there are so few people that I work with that get it (thank whoever) but their ignorance... Every time they say something stupid, it's like another knife in me. My husband (he works with me also) ran into this man today and told him "I don't have anything to say, because I know there is nothing to say." And the man said, "I now know what you are going through, buddy," and walked away close to tears. In an odd way, that comforted me, because he also acknowledged our child's death, where most minimize it "because he wasn't born yet." Or whatever their stupid rationalizations are. Thinking of you, and all of our new members.

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